Cutting The Cord
It comes in many different packages. We can choose to not open it. To put it aside in order to dissociate, reject, and be in denial. We can try all we can to numb the pain. However, in the morning, the package will still be there and we’ll be faced with the heartbreak.
It’s a part of life. It’s a sign of strength. It proves that we risked in order to experience something that ends with no guarantee. We gave permission to ourselves to open up and be vulnerable. To love someone else so much that parts of them have become a part of who we are. When it’s time to let go, It can feel like a failure because in a way, it’s releasing the part of us that we’ve grown to love and hold on to. But we are an accumulation of our experiences, and we can choose which parts we want to keep.
Love feels so good that no matter how hard it is to cut the cord, we willingly, choose to not only experience it again, but to actually risk going through the cycle of heartache all over.
During meditations, the instructor has always said to imagine a cord between you and “what no longer serves you” and cut it. To imagine a scissor and literally cut that line connecting you both together. She’d explain that it helps with the healing process, but for me that never worked. I’d get so frustrated over hearing others say that they feel like, “a new person”. I’d wonder what’s wrong with me that I couldn’t emotionally let go.
I realized that cutting the cord isn’t just about imagining. There is nothing wrong with me. It’s about taking action and literally disconnecting the phone line, because that works. It’s about taking real steps and not answering the calls, because if we do, it will strengthen the cord. It’s stopping yourself from sending that text, because when we don’t, we break an impulsive routine. Cutting the cord isn’t about focusing on what was and what we wish it could have been, because it’s not and it wasn’t that. It’s about reconnecting with yourself. Finding the things you love about who you are and expanding on those things. Sometimes, in the process, someone finds us and is inspired. We take a chance, and we reconnect our phone line to someone new, because love is the best experience in the world. So much so, we gamble with the pain of having to press decline.
